Updates

Mummy weigh at 69.6kg last week and 69.8kg this week...it drops then rise by a bit.

Talking about last week check up, bb looks fine, fluid level is okie, weight is okie, only concern is my weight seems to drop, so have to monitor closely..doc gave me another 5 more days before the next check up to see hows baby progress. She seems to be worried when I say bb movements dont seem to be great as before.

Yesterday, i was scheduled for a check up again, and she made a decision.
BB is now almost 3.3kg. I had a ctg scan again, bb heartbeat is okie, I know that she is having hicups when she was being monitored...even the nurse can tell, shes very active during the scan, cos i can sense that shes moving n moving. But my abdomen also continues to tighten n tighten during the scan. When the report is out, doc saw the contractions is pretty strong, but she ask if i hv any pain, and is suprised that I have no pain at all. Perhpas its still not the real contraction yet. She checked for my dialation, omg, its so painful, i didint expect it to be that painful.....bb is half engaged...i can see the hair and the ear from the scan. Bb fluid is running low...now is about 50 plus..it has dropped from 90plus to 50plus..anything below 50 need immediate attention. Hence, she made a decision for me. Meanwhile, she wants me to closely monitor the movement of the baby, once I sense something wrong, i have to admit immediately.

Its really scary n nervous indeed...now i took mc to rest at home till i deliver..
Thinking of the delivery process really make me scared..hubby say he be with me..I will be strong for my ger...n him...Its a process all women goes through in their life, and Im sure I can do it too....

I feel that my sister and my mum always think that Im childish, ask silly questions...and very stingy..but i feel that they dont understand me..why should we be so conscious even when talking to our own family members...they feel that I never think before I talk..but if i find theres a need to ask certain question to make myself fully prepared, I will ask, if i know i dont need to ask, but they feel thats very silly question..They always looks down on me...they didnt know they are destroying my confidence level. I never have problem communicating with my colleagues..we all have the same frequency..and they never ever find that the question i ask is silly. I had a quarrel with my mum last night over the phone..shes lecturing me, yet she said she is not..she always say one and yet say she dont mean that. I was very upset after the conversation with her..i ask my hb if im in any wrong..he say i am not, and he want me not to be affected by what others say, and to be confidence in myself. I feel that my mum and sis are all the same, they dont understand me...only my gdma is..she dotes me, and she show her concern to me and she sides me too. However, shes a very sensitive person, so nowsdays i have to be careful when i talk to her also, cos theres something she will feel upset after hearing that, shes easily affected..so i have to think before i say..smtimes i even hv to tell white lies. My mil wanted so much to pick bb up when she is discharged, but i also wanted my mum to come along..after the quarrel, i think i shall not insist..she might be busy looking after my sis kids afterall. It really upsets me.