The pass away of my grandmother(mum's side)

My grandmother (mum's side) passed away on Tue evening. I got the news soon after I left the office. Prior to that, I have already received a few false alarms as she hasnt been feeling very well ever since a few months ago. Talking about this grandmother, she is not very close to me. She is my mum's genuine mother, however, my mum has been sent for adoption soon after born. But ever since young, I knew that I have this grandmother, and has been visitng her occassionally since childhood. She has aged over the years. However, age is never a hindrance to her. She still continues to go overseas, attend all the weddings of her relatives and grandchildren. So does mine. She attended my wedding in June as well.

I still remember during chinese new year, I went to her house, and I told her, ah ma, I'm getting married in June, you must attend okie? She replied me, even if u didnt invite me, I will still attend. That was a very sweet remarks from a gdma that is not really close to me. But to her, all her grandchildren are important.

A month ago, I visited her knowing that she hasnt been feeling very well. I knew that that might be the last time I'm seeing her. I called her, but she didnt respond much, she looks less energetic than before...in fact, very much different from the ah ma I know. She looks so tired and dozing off in her wheelchair. From what I heard from my mum, it seems that they are not very sad cos my ah ma is already almost 90 and she is considered as very hao ming. Hearing that, I feel a sense of consolation. I really hope ah ma can find her happiness in heaven with ah gong.

My detailed scanning at 5th month

I went for my detailed scanning on thur. A day I been looking forward to. Cos I get to see my baby again. This time the gyne confirmed that its a girl. I get to see more of my little ger during this detailed scanning too as the gyne need to check for a lot of things like leg,spine,heart,brain etc.

The bonus I got today is my gyne told me my baby has a small nose and a small mouth just like her daddy...wah im suprised, i didnt expect her to be able to tell at my 5th mth. She also say the eyes also look like her daddy, pointed up... but I was doubting, if its really pointed up shouldnt it be like me? cos my eyes is just like that.. but too bad, I cant verified cos I dont know how to see.

The gyne was explaining a lot of things to me while scanning through, but there are a few times when I didnt manage to understand what was she trying to say..haa..cos its too techincal...so I just ask, is it okie? normal? as long as she says its normal, then im happy.

Again, the gyne commented my little girl is very active, kept turning around...busy playing. I even saw my girl yawning...its so cute..and the baby seems to be sucking on the placenta...the gyne say shes practicising the sucking method so that it aids in breast feeding when she comes out.

There was time when the gyne ask the baby to turn this side, but my girl jus want to turn the other side..haaa..so naughty..but really so cute..and it results in the gyne having to shake the tummy a bit just to make the baby turn to the desired position.

Recently, I feel my tummy very bloated...and it seems like its because the tummy is expanding and its centralised at the centre of the tummy....thts y i feel so hard and bloated...n i thk i just have to get used to it. At 20wk/5th mth, my tummy finally can be seen...a bit ..by myself..haa..not sure if others can see, cos no one seems to give me seat in the bus/train.haaa

My gyne also highlighted to me that Im putting on a bit too much weight over one month time, about 3kg..which is too fast..haa..she wants me to slow down. My baby seems to be absorbing all I been eating also, cos shes also overweight at this stage...averagly, she should be weighing at 300gms..but it turns out to be 390gms...haaa..i thk my appetite is better recently, thts y i been eating non stop..and also others kept commenting my tummy is small, so i kept eating hoping can let baby grow bigger...haa. Seems that, tummy big doesnt means baby is also big...tummy small doesnt means baby is small..

As long as I knew my baby is good and healthy...Im really contended. And I really feel very very happy after the checkup on thursday..

Olivia, mummy & daddy loves u.